It's all about feelings.... that can't die...

I just dropped by... wanting to write something... but went frozen on my keyboard...

I talked with someone earlier... It reminded me of a lot of things...

Things that can't be forgotten... but put away
Feelings that can't be dead..... but forgotten

It kills me, it tortures me,
It tears my heart,
Most of you know what I am talking about so no need to explain.

If only one could read between the lines....
Or when looking at eyes...
Or understanding trailing dots....

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I think of it when I'm alone....
And I am usually alone...
I am denying it, I am trying to forget it...

They are swords around me...
If I think of it too much.. the swords come closer and tear me.
If I don't think of it, the swords become flames that burn me...
And everyday is the same...

No one to blame...

Why do we have to love anyway....
Why do we have to suffer it...
Why don't we go away....
Why don't we forget it

No one can answer those questions...

Even more, no one can help you...
You're on your own...
You suffer alone
From the skin to the bone

When you think that things are coming clear... you got it all wrong...
It's been a long time we split....
But time means nothing....

I am damned with these feelings, I can't stop it.
I can't end it.... I tried...

Good night.....
Hoping this is my last, like every night.